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i like listening to people telling me stories, and asking me to help them, i really do, because i can learn from it and i just like to help. people tend to tell me stories about relationships or crushes, and after i hear those stories, it made me realize that i miss the old days, when were not together, when we were very close that people think we are going out. but now when we actually are, we look like people who don't know each other, and i don't want that to happen. its not how i imagined or hoped it would be, not even close. the point of us going out is actually to be closer, not further, right? but i just can't get that feeling yet. this week was one of the best week that i have ever had, because we were close, and people were paying attention to us a lot, and that made me happy somehow. he looks so cute when people make fun of us, in a good way. he smiles, he blushes, he does not know how to react. every night he keeps on saying sweet, really sweet things to me, but when we meet, even though it wasn't as bad as it was about 2 or 3 months ago, i still don't believe that he said those things, i mean i know he is the one who says those things, but its like he doesn't mean it. he probably does, but he doesn't show me that. show me that you do. its been around 4 months and 2 weeks. compared to other couples, we have been going out more than them, but it seems like we're a new couple. i miss those days where when we are close, even though i like you, but you like another girl, and you want me to help you getting close with that girl. it hurts, but us being close covers it all, which makes me happy.

i'd rather not have you, but we're very close and it makes me happier instead of having you but it seems like we don't even know each other.

the climb - miley cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa