houston, texas!

astagaaa the last post i posted was almost exactly 2 months ago in 2 days. daang. forgive me, for there have been piles and piles of homework shit from the beloved sph sentul city :) and i couldn't and wouldn't dare to spare any time for blogging. just like the title of this post, i am now currently in houston, texas :) not moving, just for the winter break :D houston is awesome so far, but not feeling that well. not physically, but soul-ly *apasih-_- well i was sick when i got here but feeling MUCH better :) hmm been eating A LOT here but also been playing basketball and jump ropin so its all good :) well i guess thats it. ill be posting some pictures on fb about me duties here :)

well this is shit

okay, experiencing a little too much of nostalgia. CMON AYO GET OVER IT! im sorry :( today's sort of a teary day. my friends finally know what's going on with me, nostalgia, i just realized what a horrible girlfriend i am for making my boyfriend sick, which leads back to the nostalgia.

ps: please ignore this post, it's probably just pms. i just feeling like bursting into tears -_-

Au Revoir

so theres this big possibility that i'm moving to america next year. its been hard and painful thinking about leaving indo and all my loved ones and the hardest is probably jeremy haryanto. BUT there have been lots of reasons for me to move

• i'll make new friends
• i get to stay in america
• im gonna leave all the shits in indo [you know who you are]
• im gonna finish school faster and thats a good thing i guess
• and many private more

MINAL AIDIN WAL FA'IDZIN
MOHON MAAF LAHIR DAN BATIN!
from the susetyo's :)

and the prabanto's too! :D

*ps: forgive me for the late-ness of this blog post. it's the thought that counts riight? :p

it's not :)

well i guess it's over

tropophobia - fear of moving or making changes

so there's a plan that my mom suddenly told me out of the blue, that if i don't get an SPH scholarschip for both DP years, i'm gonna have to move school. at first, i strongly agree with her, because there's this thing that just made me wanna get out of school so fast without even telling anyone, only to certain people. but, come to think of it, i can't bare the thought that i'm gonna move. either i'm gonna move to smansa, which is not far away from my friends and i can still meet them at boqer or something, but another option is probably moving to my sister straight away, to america. at first i was 100% yes and i agree with it and actually sorta excited, but now, i've been thinking about it lately. i don't get to spend my wednesdays after school in boqer with my friends, weekends with jeremy or ex-classmates or juniors or seniors, i'll just be with my sisters, spending time with them 24/7, which is a good thing coz i haven't spent my days with them in a long time, but cmon, moving? i do want to move because im sorta sick of sph and the expenses that just can't get into my head and make sense. its just too expensive for my parents, their saving money for my whole family, my sister's master degree, my college+uni, and my younger sister that still has a long way ahead, she's still in the 2nd grade and she got like 10 years more of school excluding uni. what's actually the correct answer for this?should i move to america?should i move to australia where at least i can meet my friends there and there are lots of sph students there?singapore with vera+mada?or just staying in indonesia probably in smansa?i've got a lot to think of lately. i know you all might think that its too soon for me to think about college etc. i know, i'm still in the 10th grade and i have better things to worry about such as PP, homework, just passing 10th grade, but the situation for me is kinda different.

okay.enough bloggin for now. gonna go off and get ready for school! -_-

okay.enough bloggin for now. gonna go off and get ready for school! -_-